Game Changer

In my last post I was talking about how I started my blogging journey and my weight loss journey at the same time. I had a little success in both and let fear stop me dead in my tracks! A blog that I liked following started a month long challenge to lose 10 pounds, so in an effort to get that area of my life under control I decided to go for it. I weighed myself, took my measurements, took before pictures and wrote everything down on a poster board in my closet.

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Next to that I wrote down the goal of losing 10 pounds and what weight that would be. My hubby being so supportive decided he would start exercising with me. He found some Insanity workouts and decided he would start with those. Since I was WAY more out of shape then him I decided I would start with something MUCH less intense. I found some 10 minute trainers and committed to doing 2 of them per day.

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I was trying, which was far more than I had done in the past but I wasn’t really seeing a lot of results. Mike’s fitness was improving a lot faster than mine was. Talk about frustrating! I know that he has a faster metabolism than I do, and he was doing a lot more in his workouts and frankly was putting in more effort than I was… but that did not stop me from being irrationally angry at him when I was standing on the scale seeing the same number over and over again! Didn’t this scale know that it was supposed to go down every time I stepped on it! Even if I only stepped on it 4 minutes ago…. it’s magically supposed to be working because I thought about losing weight! That’s all it takes right, RIGHT?! Damn you scale!

Needless to say I wasn’t making much sense or progress! Somehow Mike didn’t run away from my craziness, and managed to convince me that I should step it up in the workout department and try something harder. So I started doing a couple workouts from Chalene Johnson’s Turbo Fire.

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She was not my cup of tea! She had so much energy and pep and kept yelling at me to give it my all and then give a little more. Even though I was almost in tears from working harder than ever and jumping around my living room like a crazy person, she just kept yelling at me to keep going! I wanted to throw my shoes at the TV! But rather than give up, AGAIN, I decided that I just had to keep going.

One day I was on Facebook, killing time, and a post appeared in my time line (that to this day, I cannot explain!) from this cute girl, that I didn’t know and had no friends in common with, about being a health and fitness coach. She was talking about this group she was starting explaining what she did as a coach, and it totally got my attention. Maybe I needed a coach! Someone that could help me figure out what I needed to do and point me in the right direction of what would work for me. So I sent her a message…and a beautiful thing happened! I made one of the best friends that I could ask for and received an answer to every prayer that I was asking! She started coaching me and we started the Insanity program full out.

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Oh My Gosh! What was I thinking?! This was SO HARD! I thought I was actually dying! I didn’t even make it through the fitness test without feeling like I had already failed and this was the craziest thing I had ever done! But there was Mike encouraging me, cheering me on from the kitchen while he was making dinner for our kids. How could I give up now?

The 2 months that followed were indeed Insane! We made no excuses for ourselves and worked out every single day, even saying no to social engagements and working out on my birthday. And do you know what happened? I lost NO weight! What the crap?! The good news, my body was completely different!

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My shape and changed, I had toned, I had lost tons of inches! But there was that stupid scale taunting me! Why haven’t I broken that thing yet?

Luckily my coach had the answer…

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Shakeology to the rescue! I started drinking that and my body suddenly realized what had been missing! By the end of the program I was 10 pounds and 8 inches overall down! It was a miracle!!! I felt amazing and decided I had to share that amazingness all over the place…

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Enter Beachbody coaching! Game Changer!

Where it started

I have had my blog for about three years now. I can’t believe how fast the time has gone! I was a stay at home mommy and nanny. I was very over weight and unhappy. I loved my life, my hubby and kids, even my “extra” kids but I was very unhappy with myself. I never took time to take care of myself, I ate terribly and ended up feeding my family terribly too. My kiddos LOVE Mac and Cheese, and I let them eat it ALL the time. I had a very strange skewed view of what it meant to be a stay at home mom. (And I’m not even sure where most of the ideas came from!) In order to make myself feel more useful I baked cookies a LOT! It was very delicious, but not at all healthy.

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In an effort to use my mind a little more often, use the writing skills that I had learned in the little bit of college that I did and finally get a little healthier, I decided to start my blog. I signed up for Weight Watchers and wrote my first blog post. All about how I was going to take control of that area of my life and how I just knew that the weight was just going to MELT away!

That’s not what happened!

I stuck with my points for a few months and did lose some weight, but I hadn’t really changed what I was eating, just the amount. I did pay closer attention to what I was eating and when. So if i ate 3 Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookies for breakfast than I knew I had to be much more conservative the rest of the day. At least it was a starting point. I did eat a lot of salad, which I really did enjoy. I particularly loved all the toppings to make the salad that much better. Barbeque Chicken Salads with black beans, corn, tortilla chips, sun flower seeds, chicken, barbeque sauce and ranch dressing. Somewhere under all that was some lettuce – though how there was room after all that I don’t know! As well as many other varieties of salads all covered in toppings and doused in ranch. I did switch to fat free ranch to try to save myself some points. Because I was eating a salad I automatically assumed I was eating healthy and then would be frustrated if I didn’t lose any weight that day.

Even though I clearly had so much to learn about eating healthy, it did work a little bit. I lost about 20 pounds. It was a very good place for me to start learning about how to pay attention to what I was eating and keeping track of all the things that I wanted to eat through out the entire day.

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I gained some weight back and lost some again. I yo yo-ed like that for a while. Eventually losing close to 40 lbs. But it seemed like I could never break that 40 pound mark. And although I had lost an impressive amount already, I didn’t feel any better because to me my body still looked the same. I still had the same rolls and flabby skin. Even when my pants were too big I still had a muffin top, my post baby belly still looked pouchy, and despite the weight loss my boobs were still the same size! (I know that doesn’t seem like a problem to some people, but it REALLY was for me!)

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I kept writing my blog, but after that first post about joining weight watchers, I didn’t write about my weight loss again. I couldn’t talk about something that I felt I was failing at, even though I was clearly losing weight. I turned my blog into somewhere that I wrote about crafts, recipes and of course my kiddos. And I started following all kinds of blogs of that variety for inspiration. Then I decided to take a leap of faith and went to a blogging conference, where there were tons of bloggers and so many amazing inspiring stories. It truly was a great experience, that I let paralyze me from fear. I almost immediately stopped blogging. I had such huge ideas and vision for what I could make my blog, but lacked the confidence and faith in myself to put the work into making that happen. I kept watching other bloggers, reading their blogs getting little pieces of inspiration along the way.

One of those blogs did a June fitness challenge, and I thought once again here was one part of my life that I could control. So I decided that I would participate. I took all my measurements and weighed myself and wrote it all down on a poster board in my closet. I started out on June 1st doing a 10 minute trainer everyday…

 

…. Stay tuned for the rest of this story…